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The Only Problem Is Getting Started

Darrell really said some shit that made almost total sense tonight.  Once you get started with something it becomes natural... the only problem is starting and then being consistent once you start.  No wonder certain things don't work out for me.  I start them and then I never want to follow through and allow time to take its course.  I'm always like "okay this has started now let's dive right in" and then I never enjoy anything or see any results.  And maybe that's why I'm not moving forward but everyone else is.  I never stay consistent with anything.  That really saddens me because I spend most of my time being unhappy with myself and the things that I constantly keep doing.  So from now on I am working hard to be consistent with everything that I touch.  I know that I am destined for greatness, I know that I can overcome adversity... I'm getting back to my true self.  And I'm not going to rush the process.  I was gonna say that however long it takes is fine with me but I'm not even trying to worry about that.  Time is so fluid, it passes regardless of my movements.  I gotta make that count. 

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